Have you ever been in a relationship where you loved the person with all that you had and yet every part of you told you to run and when you got the chance, run like hell? Every piece of me wanted to leave, every piece of me knew I had to leave and yet every piece of me would only get as far as to packing up one box sitting on the kitchen floor and balling my eyes out. Then I would wait, I would wait until he came in and ask me to stay and I would always ask the one question, Do you love me? and the answer was always yes.
You see this question is the reason why I stayed in a 4 and a half year relationship that should of ended after a year and a half. I had to find my bottom though, the last straw that would finally make me go run and never look back. I found it... My brother in law died and the month that followed my bottom became clear. And the first few steps were hard, then I ran and when I ran I never looked back.
The relationship I was in was what I refer to as a "toxic relationship." Now for those of you who know the person I am speaking of I will say this. I have the confidence to know that one day he will be the man that I saw from time to time. It is my belief that every man and every woman know how to be in a relationship. They simply get to find the person that they want to be that for. I wasn't his.
After hearing the recent release of Eminem's new song "Love the Way You Lie" I told myself it was time to write this blog. In fact I have wanted to write a book about Toxic relationships for quite some time now. This is the first step I believe.
Most people who look at others who are in toxic relationships can't even fathom why the people stay together. I always remind those people that what you tolerate, what I will tolerate and what they tolerate are all different. Yet when it comes to that point, the bottom, the person knows and that is when they run like hell.
This won't be the last blog about toxic relationships. I say this because I believe with all that I have, I had to go through this to get to the place I am at today. I have committed to being vulnerable, open and trusting with all of me to one person. Some might even say that I, DreAnn Story am in love...
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